Welcome to this... Life.

"We Are Golden" by Mika is the song of the moment

I previously read some of my old blog posts and GOOD LORD I complain a lot. Gotta love self reflection.
I was thinking about old friends today and everything, I was/am having a pretty decent day. Hey look, the sun's come out :)

Then like in anyone's life, bumps in the road present itself. A friend of mine disappeared and apparently transferred to another school without telling ANYone, including me. I thought she and I were close, but obviously we weren't. I don't know, I finally went low enough to ask her boyfriend if he could ask her to RESPOND to at least ONE of my messages that I've left for her. I don't get it.

The other thing that sort dampened my day was the fact that so many people are in shows this semester. I'm just kind of upset about that. I just don't even like talking about it. I thought I did pretty decently but whatever. It's over now and I'll just get into a worse mood than before. Yay Shakespeare in the Park. The exclusivity that you bring makes me want to strangle myself, thanks. I'm just disappointed in the fact that some people are in what like, 3 or 4 shows and I can't seem to get even close to be cast in any. Honestly, this SHOWS that I have no talent for this field. In my head, my brain is saying to just walk away and do something else. Try to get better at something else. Try and DO SOMETHING ELSE. But right now, I have no idea what that could possibly be. Considering I hardly know anything else.
What does a person do if they want to change EVERYTHING about their life?
Where does one even begin?

I maybe can look into Art? I mean my voice isn't ANYWHERE strong enough to try with that, I can't play a musical instrument, maybe photography?
God this is hard. Redefining your Entire life has got to be difficult.

This is SO Frustrating.