If this is a Turning point then... Good.

Certain things have been made apparent to me.

I was at a retreat for a group that I'm in and while everyone was being emotional, I managed to ...well also be equally emotional but I figured some things out. This semester has been shit already. I admit that. But see so many great things have come out of it. Including finding someone who I seriously consider a best friend already, someone who I can't wait to possibly have a future with, and a life outside of the thing I thought I loved most.
Yes, I am a Theatre major. BUT, it doesn't own me anymore.
I still love it, but I am not stressing about it anymore.
THANK GOD, too because I was slowly killing myself with the stress, mentally and physically.
It was funny because I used to love art and I drew all the time and READ, ahhh I missed reading. And now I'm doing both and I feel fantastic.

There's something scratching at my heels though... and I think it's cabin fever.
I suppose I'm probably at that age where I just want to learn everything and see the world and experience cultures and so on. I want to SO Badly too. I just want to go out on my own with whatever money I have and just see.
But my logical/reasoning part of my brain wakes up and goes "YOU have Obligations MADAM, you can do that LATER."

*sigh*

I was close. I AM close.
But I will one day get out there and see everything. That's my goal before I die.


So about this boy... :)
He makes me smile. And I know I've talked about him before, but I don't know. He intrigues me. His smile makes me happy and for right now, that's just perfect.
I would love to be that person that makes him happy and that person that he can turn to and just hug for as long as he needs.
I feel this intense need to go somewhere with him.. Like I just want to go and see things with him. He does that to me :)
And you know, in a previous post I said that I wanted to know what he was thinking...
Honestly, I'm kind of loving the fact that I don't know everything he's wondering about. It's really interesting because I've never been like this with anyone else.
I've never met anyone like him either.

So life's getting complicated but not in a bad way. I'm taking everything one step at a time as everyone has told me before.
Go with the flow...
Because going against the current isn't an option...

And I read some of the best advice, and he didn't even know what the circumstances were...
"Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and think of what could go right."
Best advice I've ever gotten, must say.

Well I'm for sure hoping for some amazing times :)