Crafting Crazy, Creative Cretins Creatures' Creations for Christmas.

AAHH how'd it get to be 4AM?!

BUT AHH I got SO EXCITED for Christmas like yesterday.
I'm forming lists of things that I'm gonna make for people.
I actually found things that I want to make for my Grandpa... HE IS SO HARD TO SHOP FOR.
But omg. I want to make him a lamp for his workshop that is made out of a washer drum. HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE.
Sorry I'm really excited.
For my grandma, I'm making her sewing related things.
For Lise', I'm getting personal. She's getting Scrabbled' Coasters and cute decorative things that inspired me on Pinterest.
For Chloe, cupcake lights, an earring rack, and canvases. She wants me to teach her to paint.
GOOD LORD I'M EXCITED.

AND several ideas for Erin. But I will not post here BECAUSE SHE READS. *the face*
And Cat's on that list too. ;)

So Cat and I went to Antiquing today and it was sooooo.... Overwhelming :D because we went to "The Antique Place" to go and jesus christ, there was 3 floors CRAMMED with stuff. I couldn't handle it. BUT I have ideas. SO MANY IDEAS.
I'm knitting right now too. Actually just a hat you know? I'm knitting it for me and I finished painting something for my Grandma. I have lots to do and I need to watch my money carefully because I don't want Christmas to end up like it did last year with me scrambling around at the last second to get things done.

...Lise keeps bringing up the fact that we're gonna be at my grandparents house for Christmas morning. Like we're having a slumber party there so that it's not as hard waking up to a house where my Mom isn't making coffee and shuffling around in her giant green bathrobe.

Christmas is going to be reeeeeally hard. Considering that my entire family loves holidays almost too much.
While I was out with Cat, we went into this other little antique place and I was riffling through stuff and stumbled upon this little set of old projector slides of the "It's A Small World" ride. I teared up right then and there because the first thought in my head was "Ohhh! I could put this in Mom's stocking!...." and then realized. Jesus this is harder than I thought. I miss her. I wish I could hear her telling the story about when she and I went to Disneyland, just us while Dad was doing business, and we went on that ride and got stuck for almost an hour. We laughed so hard because of that stupid song, that was playing over and over and over again. I wish I could share that with someone who would think it was as funny as I used to think it was...
I don't know what I'm going to do this year... My christmas stuff is all in boxes, and Lise has no idea where or how to set any of it up... I don't want to go home but I want to so bad. I want everything to go back to the way it was....
I need to stop. I have to stop. Because I'm just depressing myself and unfortunately we have to make new traditions whether we like it or not. Lise said we can bring Brownie over for Christmas. God, I'm so glad because then I'll have my lil pillow to snuggle up with.
Thanksgiving will be okay.
Thanksgiving will be okay.
Thanksgiving will be okay.
I just have to keep telling myself that.
I AM making her cranberry sauce and those wierd-ass brussel sprouts she loved so much though. In her honor. Hopefully I can make them all right... AND I'm making the turkey.
I'm pretty excited and I'll post all the foodie stuff on my other page-
http://confessions-of-a-college-cook.blogspot.com/
which I think is pretty cool I guess. I mean it's just a blog about food..

But jesus, I need a hug.

I've discovered that I think I need a boyfriend... I've been so goddamn flirty lately and I need to stop that. I really though.. I really want someone to dote on.. to cook for... to snuggle with that won't shed all over me :)
Potentially someone to help me get through everything, slightly. Or at least lessen the blow that the holidays will imminently have on my family.

We'll get through things though. I've had to learn to do so by myself, and that's what it's lookin to end up playin out as.
No problems though, I guess.

So okay, shower time!
<3 ya all!

Blackbird fly... Into the light of a dark black night..

Today was good.
A hiccup here or there but overall it turned out great. I got to reconnect with a couple of friends and connect with someone new and it was nice.

Not to mention I got in line for a breakfast burrito just in time. THAT in itself makes my day.

Classes are classes. BUT I'm getting ready to get my trips all in order.
I'm so excited you don't even know.
I'm trying to plan my New Years, whether it's in NY or AZ... THEN there's the conference in March to CA. AND FINALLY. LE PIECE DE RESISTANCE.
The Trip To Europe.
With Erin. I can't even stand it.

Life is looking up a bit.
Unfortunately things get put on hold and some get pushed elsewhere. But you gotta do what you gotta do I guess. And I honestly can't think of any more of an eloquent way to have said that.

And what's funny is that I keep thinking about my date from tonight... Haha sweet boy. No really, he seems genuinely sweet and just goofy. It's refreshing really. I would love to just hang out with him more. I don't know, I think him and I have some stuff in common, but I hardly know him so I guess I'll just have to get to know him better. Which I would really like to, too :)

It's been a good day... And tomorrow will be even better.