Hello there... Anyone care to listen?

It's definitely been a while... So I really apparently only feel the need to write when I'm overwhelmed. At least none of this shit is my own, handily enough. I'm caught in the middle of 3 friends. And I have no idea what to do. I'm really tired of saving face for someone I can't seem to illict a reaction from or a care (this someone who we used to be friends and i figured we were close but not really anymore because she's Incredibly self centered.)

My next friend I've known for what, 4 years? Something like that. He's a good guy but I don't think he realizes all that he's stirring up. And I care for him, really I do. But fuck it. I don't want to be mediator.

And the last one, someone I seriously just met, who's instilling her trust in me and wanting me to figure things out when I don't even know what the hell is going on.

I just want my life back, I miss my friends, and I want to be able to look my friends in the eyes and not think this way anymore.

and Yes, I'm probably being dramatic and I Know that. I just really don't know what to do and can someone tell me something reassuring?