[What is Really on your mind?]

I'm changing.
I, myself as a person, am changing.

This whole feeling is hard but it's interesting to watch at the same time. I think I noticed it today when I pulled out an art project that I'm working on. I was actually really proud of it, unlike any of the "art" I've done before.
Also, I set out to get stuff done, and even if it did take me all day, I have it done. Mainly laundry was what it was too. Since Spring Break is zooming up fast, I needed to get it done. All FOUR Massive Loads of it, goddamn. But it's interesting, I texted Jordan a few times throughout the day; we had mentioned hanging out. But I ended up not getting a response but I was teaching myself not to fixate on it. He has his life and I have mine. I did miss him though because it was an absolutely beautiful day and reminded me of a particular day he and I spent together during Homecoming week. Beautiful days like today's always tend to remind me of him...

But on another note....
I think I'm becoming more thoughtful of what I'm doing. I was trying so hard to not screw up and mess something up or seriously forget something. But I've had to realize that whatever it is, isn't the end of the world. Nothing ever is. I'd rather live my life happy and full of new realizations of things I've come to know, rather than monotonously in the same routine, hating everything about what I'm doing. Why do you think I'm a Theatre major? Because it's ever-changing. Always evolving. And that inspires me.

I've decided to get a grip and become.. well ultimately a better person. I feel I need to. I need to work on the mental side of things since I think it's sort of a well known fact that I'm a skitzo.
But I feel a change coming... This peace is kind of nice as it washes over you in the midst of a good song. Bombadil, Mumford and Sons, Kurt Vile, Matt & Kim, Simon and Garfunkel, and The Temper Trap are my soundtrack to these sort of days...