Closure.

It will be a year to the day, since we broke up. Tomorrow is my one month anniversary with Jordan. I find that sort of comforting honestly. In a strange way, it's closure for me I guess. I saw him walking away and thought, "ha, it's been a year and I'm perfectly happy."

I guess the reason why this has been such a big thing with me over the last year is because ...(as I physically hesitate and stare at the computer screen) ...because I don't like hurting people. I hurt him and myself, and people retaliated and friends were lost in the shuffle. Hate was thrown, people were put down it was not what I wanted... But it's over, and has been for a year and suddenly a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it's nice. I'm done and I'm through with it all.

Tomorrow, will be the day that Jordan and I have been together for a month officially. He's different than anyone that I know and I hope that he and I will see a lot together. I'm a nice feeling to know that someone has your back when you need it, but is willing to give you space at the same time. It's nice to have that person there, even if some how you've convinced yourself you don't need it. You really do every now and again.

Even on this gray day, there's something to smile about :)