Damn it Neil Gaiman!

I found this quote and had no idea where to put it... I didn't want to put it on Facebook, thus someone getting the wrong idea of me. But I do actually believe this. It's saddening to me but I'm in a place right now that I'm almost scared of being vulnerable. I'm scared of opening myself up to someone just for them to get tired of me and say "you know, I don't think this is going to work..." followed by that characteristic long pause of dis-belief from me. But see I've spent a long time trying to fix my heart from what has happened in the past and god, I'm scared now. I'm absolutely terrified and what I tend to do is over-think, over-analyze, over-judge my situation with that person. I'm not doubting everything, but I'm just scared.
Wow, that's the word I've been searching for.
I hadn't been able to think of what it was I was feeling...
I want so badly just to innocently throw myself into this relationship. I want to absentmindedly trust and be that person he wants. But thanks to the cogs and screws in my mind, I feel I haven't been feeling that. I have to remind myself that he's there. He's the one who smiles at me... I'm the one he smiles at....
But could I even be that lucky?
I'm that girl? Or is this just some day-dream that's strangling my heart into believing he's looking at me?
Is it as simple as "Just trust it!" or is it as unsettling as "Well, if you hold them too close, they will go away..."

My brain and heart need to seriously have a chat.

Thanks for the confusion Neil.