I think I do at least. Because I've never felt like this before. I'm really confused on my emotions right now. It's wierd because we have chemistry but aren't like ALL over eachother. I feel like I can be myself around him. I Have been myself around him. I can see him while wearing sweats and also while wearing a skirt or whatever. I really like his hugs. I want to kiss him but anytime is okay with me. I don't get this because to me, I'm usually all over guys and then it just gets bad. But he seems to be alright with my craziness. I really kinda like this thing. I see myself being friends with him or I see him and I being something. I'd love that. I'd love if he and I were to become something. I feel like him and I are a good balence but oh my god, I'm so rambly right now. I've been thinking about him. Like over the weekend, I was shopping with my friend Audrey on King St and found a record store. I found an Elvis LP and bought it for him. I thought he might like it since he LOVES Elvis. I loved seeing his reaction when he saw it. It just made me happy in a mellow kind of way. I just wanted to do something nice for him that was nothing. I love records and yeah, I think he liked it. I'm always sad when I have to watch him leave. Like he had to go write a paper and I was going out with Allison and my friends for her birthday. Once we got back, I walked into the market and called him, suggesting (or rather asking to see him) a study break. And so we hung out in my dorm, and we just giggled and smiled and we do that. We sit and talk and laugh. Him and I are good at that. He is easy to make laugh and I love that. His face makes me laugh. Oh geez, I like him. I want so badly to say "Could we have a movie date soon?" I don't know why, I think it's the whole saying the word "date" that freaks guys out of it. But I keep seeing in my head a picture of him and I watching an old movie, me in his arms and him smiling. That's all. It's so damn sappy but it's just a nice thought. I'd love to just hold hands with the boy. He makes me want to just go slow. But damn, he's a freaking ladys' man. GEEZ. He is so damn charming it's ridiculous. BUT I let him know that his charms are cute. But I am immune :) Or maybe I'm not ;) I don't know. I want him to hold my hand. I want him to know how I feel but I'd almost rather keep it like this because I almost don't want to ruin the friendship we've got. I just think he's special in a goofy kind of way. I meant to show him that pair of Batman converse. I think he'd actually die if he saw those. I really just want to show up with them, all nonchalantly and be like, "oh yeah so I got some new shoes... you like?"
But that would be so mean :D I love this song right now, "Good Love " by The Last Goodnight. I honestly wish that he could just read my mind and see how I feel about this situation. Til then though, I'm going to watch movies with him, have dinners and lunches and snacks with him, go on walks with him, talk to him and laugh with him, think about him and generally that's about it. I really want one of his hugs right now :) Just a giant bearhug. But it's okay, he said he would hopefully see me tommorrow. And that makes me happy :)
He makes me happy :)
Even if he doesn't know it.
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