And the sleep schedule is still outta wack. Went to bed at like 6:30 am yesterday morning... woke up at like 7:30am for Chloe's basketball game.. Took a nap at some point today and now its 4am again. Jesus I'm lonely in this house. And you all know how I get when I am by myself... i think.
Today I was on a "I want company really badly" kick. You would think, well her aunt and cousin are there right? Well they are except that they remove themselves from society way more than I think is healthy.... I don't know I mean taking 4 hour naps when we could be doing something, and cancelling plans on others and basically just sitting there watching TV all day really isn't healthy. Yet that's what we do. Everyday. On those idiotic purple sofas that are basically beds. The living room has been reworked so it accomodates two... occaisionally a third person will come and try to join the conversation but it's futile because that beautiful green loveseat that my mom and I had picked out is isolated and struck out at a funky angle. I feel like I'm basically bitching but I don't know what else to do. I am so stir crazy I may just break into the dorms tomorrow. Fucking dorms. That don't open until Friday. Ridiculous.
Goddamnit, I am going to drive myself crazy if I don't do something soon. And I mean I have things to do, but jesus I am just so lonesome, I guess. Lise goes to bed at like 8 and Chloe trails into her room about an hour later. I don't understand this whole going to bed early thing. I don't know, maybe college has spoiled me. Maybe my sleep schedule IS messed up. Maybe I'm just bored and lonely with all my friends in Boone and me still stuck down here. I am reallllllllllllly tired of this feeling and I'd like to be back now, kthanx.
In the meantime, heres the list thats spinning in my head:
-finish study abroad application so its ready to turn in
-figure out the app fee and the work she wanted us to have done before break was over
-finish the kittycat box
-finish brookes present
-hang out with whoever is still here and quit bothering people
-do laundry, pack for boone, clean room (most likely this will be done thursday...night)
-go over bills and money etc with lise
-talk to verizon about an upgrade and a new plan
-get lunch with lisa g and grandma (potentially thursday too)
-call people about apartments from list
-stop inventoring the house, thats not a concern yet
-stop complaining
-finish corset and the hat for me and the scarf for me
-sooooooo much more
Good god I have a lot to do. I just wish I had some help in it all. Taking over my life, with no guidance is a lot harder than what I thought.
Motivation is just a lot harder to come by.
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