As the day inches by... 19 draws closer.

Lately I've turned to my blog to let out my feelings... I've been feeling like life is great but then not so. It's not as great as it Could be. That's mostly my fault, no one else's. I hate when I vent to people because then they try and give me advice for whatever pissy mood I'm in and they should know better. I'm stubborn as hell and also Debbie-Downer when the time is right. So that never makes for a very good conversation.

So as I sit here waiting for my laundry to finish washing so I can switch it and go jump in the shower, I feel like a little writing. I truely need to get out of this funk. Oh and my birthday is coming up this Saturday... It just happens to fall on one of the busiest vacation weekends of the year. Mainly because everyone is out of school, summer sessions at college are generally finishing their first term and it's the weekend before 4th of July. Most of my friends are on trips, or have other plans so I tend to get a little sad I guess right before my birthday. It's actually incredibly pathetic because this happens every year. Usually for no reason, I mean this happens every year, I should be used to it right? But I need to stop bitching.

I really should get out there more. It's just hard without a car or rather a liscense. I'm still working on that... I'm trying to wait until I stop getting anxious when I just Think about getting behind the wheel of a car. I really need to get over it though. I feel like a dumbass because I'm terrified of driving. I'm fucking 19 for god sakes!! But oh well, whatever.

I just need to get through today, tommorrow and this it's my birthday :) Which I'm betting myself will inevitably be fun.

Something that I've actually figured will take up my time is this new project I'm planning on doing. From the day of my birthday I'm going to take a picture everyday of something that represents that day for everyday until my 20th birthday in 2011 :) Also for May, I was hoping on taking a roadtrip as soon as we get home from school. A long roadtrip to California... That's my goal. I have all of the logistics roughly planned out. Some of the other details will fall into place but I need to have a goal for next year. I NEED to. If I don't then I have nothing to work for.