Collective Conscious- Reunited

I've gone through my life noticing people.
People I've never met, but feel as though I've known forever. Someone crosses my path, we meet and all of a sudden we are promising to be closer and to let our friendship exceed either of our expectations.
My neighbors have become an incredibly important facet in my life. But something had happened the day that they moved in. I met Conner, Lacy's boyfriend. He's relatively ordinary, completely genuine and really.. just a dude. The problem that I had that first week was that I could immediately remember his name, but not either of the girls (who I thought were cool and all) that he lived with. Just Conner.
What I couldn't explain was the fact that I wasn't exactly sexually attracted to him but it was as if my sights suddenly narrowed and all I could focus on was Conner. I'd met him before. I could feel him being a part of some form of me, but I'd never met him in this lifetime.

Recently I was introduced to something called a "collective consciousness", which interested me right away. I've believed in something like it my entire life but had never had a name to put to it. I thought for a long time it was a type of "witchcraft" but since being introduced to this way of thinking, everything seems to make sense. The strange feelings I'd felt for people (again, in a non-sexual way), the "inklings" as they were in my mind, the weird attachments for people- everything, just began to make sense. 

So back to Conner and I.
The other evening, I thought that I was developing a crush on Conner, I was confusing this weird inkling of a feeling for an actual love connection. I hated that feeling and wanted it gone entirely. I didn't have a desire to sleep with Conner though. I only ever wanted to be as close as possible, as if to know what he's thinking or something in that general sense. The feeling got loose and I spoke about it to Conner to try and ease my mind. I told him that what I was feeling wasn't sexual, it was strictly wanting to feel close with him. I had no desire to take him out of the relationship he has with Lacy. I actually really appreciate their relationship. But as soon as I said anything, he proclaimed back to me that when we first saw each other, he was sure we'd met before in some way. (I guarantee that we haven't.) But there was something different, he said he felt like we'd been close yet had somehow been separated. From there he told me that he felt the need to speak of some recurring dream he had, I just absolutely needed to know this dream. He'd been somewhere on the coastal bluff of an area like Ireland, something had happened between him and someone else, he'd been shoved off of that cliff and was no more. Then he'd wake up.

During the recount he was having, I tried to keep my line of intuition clear. I focused on the act in which he was describing and "1810 .... Dublin" felt like it was being shouted in my ear. Once I closed my eyes, I felt like I was there, watching what was happening. I immediately broke into somewhat uncontrollable tears because the emotional pain that was flooding my body was too great to ignore. I spoke of what was going on in my mind at that moment to Conner and it was like the lights got turned on for the two of us. This brief experience makes me understand the insane desire to move "back to Dublin" as I always let slip, let alone the personal sadness I'd feel while I would stand on the bluff in La Selva. Things just began to make sense.

My belief is in reincarnation, in a sense. I believe that Conner and I have been together in past life cycles, actually quite a few in fact. The previous life cycle, we were apart. But the cycle before that, is when that fatal day in Dublin we believe may have occurred. I feel as though we are connected on the collective conscious plane and have been destined to be together. We both believe it and when we realized that fact, it was almost as if I had been reunited with a brother. We hugged each other closer we ever had before.
Once the pain I experienced from earlier had subsided and Conner and I began to realize what was truly going on, I was filled with so much happiness. It was as if my eyes had been opened and what I'd been searching for sat right in front of me. It's as in a puzzle piece had been put back into my soul and so much of the contempt I felt prior to that evening, was dissipating.

Some people may call me delusional or crazy but I feel like I finally got a handle on my life, my soul, and my mind.