Hey everybody- I've been sort of taking stock of my life in my time here at home and whilst celebrating my epicness of a birthday (21 BITCHES!), I've begun to realize a few things...
I've lived through a HELL of a lot.
I'm happy (at least in this moment in time) and absolutely content with a lot that's gone on in life.
Let's see... What all have I even done?
I...
-Moved 3000 miles away from all my friends and family
-Dealt with a hell of a childhood growing up as the weird fat girl
-Lived through my parents' nasty divorce
-Got diagnosed with a life long health issue that I'll never be able to change
-Graduated High school with a 4.0
-Took the leap and got accepted into a great university
-Loved and lost and loved again
-Discovered alcohol/drugs/nicotine and honestly they really aren't for me
-Found my calling in costuming and Theatre (and a job in it too)
-Lost my Mom, who was my best friend and confidante to cancer
-Got a painful tattoo in her honor
-Went to New York for New Years
-Went to Chicago and found a faith... in something, in people
-Traveled so many places in Europe, some even by myself
-Didn't die on my 21st birthday, even if I wanted to...
-Lived on my own since I was 18
-Am living through my Aunt and Uncle's crazy separating/divorce
-Found friends that will actually be with me for the rest of my life
A lot of it isn't fancy but you know what, I've done so much in my life already and I've got probably another 60+ years left.
No I don't have a baby.. or two. No, I'm not married to someone I dated in freshman year of high school. Yes, I'm incredibly lucky to have done everything I did. Yes, I did try hard to get where I am. No I'm not stuck in my life and I honestly never plan on taking depression pills because I know that my life is going to be what I make of it. I will make it incredible. I can feel it.
I almost get energized when I see someone from high school who was married at 17, has two kids and hasn't seemed to move out of their parents house yet.
I can't even imagine how depressed they must be, when they realize that there's so little that they can do now that they have had to grow up and be parents or when they are with the first person they laid eyes on that called them "pretty". I can't settle. Maybe I'll always be reaching but I feel like there's so much out there that hasn't been done or see or been accomplished. Some day I'll be out there making headlines that the people I went to highschool with will watch and be jealous of.
Who did they think I was? Just some stupid girl who would make the wrong decisions?
HAH no. I will be the one that they remember, the one that they see and go "oh wait, Honey! We went to high school with her! Oh wow, so she's doing.... that! Well that's very cool!"
I can't wait to be that person.
I can't wait to wow people. I promise you that's what I'll be doing.
Not to mention I don't plan on growing up yet. Growing up has never really been on the agenda....
So I guess here goes!
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